I Would Rather Be In Bed

Life, it really gets in the way of so many things.

I’ve spent weeks curled up in the stress of every day nonsense that now, sitting here quiet for just a few minutes listening to the birds chirp outside, with the sun shining brightly, I realize how long it’s been since I just sat down.

Really sat down for more than just a minute here or a minute there in between a task here and there. I mean actually sitting down with the intention to read a book, watch a TV show, or even just simply relax. I know the list of things I have to get done today is just piling up and maybe I’ll have to rush later to get them done but I’m taking this moment to pause and sit. To reflect.

To let go of some of the stress I carry around every day.

I’m tired of it. It’s heavy. And my shoulders feel every single ounce of it.

I need to put it down.

I sit quietly in these moments, and close my eyes, taking my mind off all the things that are waiting to be done. All the things that linger…

And always…always…

They reach for you. There are many places and spaces I find peace and rest in this world. On a beach with a book in my hands, on a quiet porch with a cup of coffee, on a hiking trail far from civilization, but I’ve found my most favorite one of all. It’s the quiet of your heartbeat, the feeling of your arms around me, the simplicity of your hand in mine, the way you kiss me. It’s the way you love me.

I’ve let my mind spend so much time wrapped up in life, and not nearly enough time wrapped up in you. Not nearly enough time on everything that you are and everything that you mean to me.

So I’m taking these few quiet moments, whether I have time for them or not, taking a few deep breaths and putting down some of the heavy baggage I’m carrying that serve me no purpose. Then, I’m letting my mind swirl around in you and all the clear skies you’ve brought into my life when before I was only weathering the storms.